A morning walk with almost no pain. For months I haven’t really thought that would happen.
The hip, groin and leg pain had even gotten worse after I finished chemo, to the point where I’d adjusted my days to not moving more than I had to.
No different than during chemo. Being at the mercy of discomfort.
Both sadness and anger at what I’ve done to my body. Have i ruined it forever? Will it ever heal completely and I’m not talking about from cancer? Will I ever have my life back?
I was so set on going back to working out and then all i could manage was a slow dog walk, fighting to get through it.
And then today-no pain waking up, no pain walking, not until the very end and then more muscular and both sides. Not that shooting. unbearable pain down my legs.
Some time ago I started studying Energy Medicine, www.edenenergymedicine.com and going through Meridians and Acupuncture points I started testing it on myself. Tracing meridians, massaging points, both for pain/unbalance and cleansing. My legs started feeling better almost immediately!
So is the result from doing what I’ve been doing or is it from my strong and focused intention to get better and to heal?
Last week i also went for Acupuncture, not to a Chinese medicine person but to a Physical Therapist, since that would be free (socialized medicine is amazing). Interesting experience. No connection, no curiosity, no sharing of more knowledge or suggestions of other treatments.
I felt like I did the work and all she did was put needles in me.
Laid there wondering what had her choose this profession :). What intention did she have, if any?
Anyway she lives her life and I’m living mine. Feeling better I’m reminded that my body has been amazing during these past six months.
Blood work ok through the whole thing.
Skin not much dryer that usual. Using products from www.sweetwaterlabsnyc.com and www.drsannas.se.
Stomach ok (Molkosan might have helped).
Blood pressure good (maybe Beet juice has helped).
This morning hardly out of breath at all so I know I’m going in the right direction and I am reminded and intending that my body is amazingly strong and can heal anything