All tests taken-no cancer anywhere else, and since they’ve removed what was cancerous, today, like the Oncologist said, I’m cancer free. That’s a thought to linger on.
Next step-what to do to make sure it doesn’t find its way into my body again, how to make sure that I stay healthy.
Lots of information, overwhelming, some confusing and some very clear.
Surprising myself with, what I think is my decision, to go through all the after treatment. That means six months of filling my body with chemicals I never ever thought I would go near.
But it’s all about how you feel about something. What does your body say? What feels right? At this moment in time and nothing more.
Think I even felt more scared before today. Yes I’m sure it helps to find out that there is no spreading but also just allowing myself to sink back and just feel, deep inside. What is the best way for me right now?
What does feel a bit over whelming is six months of being a hostage. A hostage to poison, drugs, side effects like nausea, tiredness and losing my hair. To not be in charge of my life somehow.
Remembering someone close to me saying, after a serious surgery that they were going to be world champion of this situation.
I will be a world champion of cancer treatment.