Usually in the beginning of January you write/share/post your intentions for this new year. Wishes, hopes, goals, your “new “plan for what seems like a new beginning.
I’m all for new beginnings and to take the opportunity whenever it feels right-new year, your birthday, first day of Fall or Spring, anytime where you can remind yourself, re-boot your life, find new lit inspiration and continue to re-create the life you want.
For me today though, all I can think of, am trying to keep at bay, is what the doctor is going to tell me this afternoon. Test results that will, either be a verdict or a new lease on life.
I suppose in either way it’s an opportunity to open life up even more, live even more and to treat every moment as precious which I, of course, know it already is.
So as much as whatever comes is another door opening, all I feel right now is loneliness, worry and sorrow.
i have felt this loneliness before and it’s a loneliness that can’t be filled with people. It’s more of like being in a bubble where no one can really join you.
The worry sits somewhere deep inside, where no experience of mindfulness, NLP, meditation, positive thinking or alike can reach so I just have to wait, today one glance at the watch at a time.