Second treatment turned out very different than the first.
Experienced that paralysing exhaustion for about a week and then started to feel better. Not as many other side effects either so even if the tiredness is debilitating, my stomach was pretty much ok which makes life so much easier.
And then when the energy, life returns, the joy is amazing. To have to be sick to remember to enjoy those small things of everyday life.
Like, having enough energy to take a regular dog walk, to run errands, to vacuum, to give the dog a bath, to read and the ultimate-paint!
First one door and part of a dresser (a project I’ve planned for a while) and then my kitchen walls. They said not to wash windows with the pic line but they didn’t say anything about painting walls :)
Sitting here, looking at those walls, all white and clean, oh the satisfaction!
And, of course, Winston, immediately started trying to lick the paint off. Yes, he’s done that in the bedroom and now he thought…..another opportunity! Crazy dog!
All those activities, big and small, that we take for granted when life goes along smoothly and that become so important when they are out of reach.
How do I keep being in the moment of the ordinary? To enjoy the everyday? To remember all those small moments of joy when normal is back?
Scary to have chemo be the guide. A tough guide for sure, but so grateful to be shown life again.