Don’t sleep that well, not that’s been my best event for quite some time, but this is different. Some nights I have to go to the bathroom “too” often, my body reacting to the chemo, and this makes for lighter sleep and sometimes I have a hard time going back to sleep, all together.
When I sleep, often it’s like floating, and not really the good way, lightly, slightly awake and slightly asleep. Waking up form one of those nights, I’m still so tired. Thank good I can take naps, although those tend to be of the same fashion.
I do think of it as my body is cleaning out, getting rid of the bad stuff. I also do Mindfulness Body scanning (which will be on my website and Youtube as soon as I clean it up from me forgetting the arms, as a good friend pointed out) and if that doesn’t put me to sleep, at least it relaxes me and feels good.
Get up and want to just get my breakfast (hot water, veggie/fruit smoothie (as much organic ingredients that I can afford), coffee, vitamins/supplements, beet juice and Molkosan) but my little monster, Winston, has decided to have a fit, jumping on me and nipping at my pyjamas. Scream!!!
Calmly I either work with him for a bit and he gives up and lays down, much faster than before or. like this morning (day after treatment), I put him in his crate and now he’s sleeping.
Even though I took less Cortison yesterday (doctor’s suggestion) for possible nausea (no reaction!), my face is already itching and looking a bit red.
Is that because it accumulates or what is it? I thought it would be a bit less so that if I had the energy I would go buy paint, and even paint another door, if I felt up to it. As honest with showing my chemo life I’d like to be, this look…..not so fun.
At least my face doesn’t get completely dry (at least not yet!). Might be helped by the organic, natural products I use. (www.sweetwaterlabsnyc.com, that I brought with me and now are having a friend bring some more when she’s visiting, beginning of May, and www.drsannas.se, a Swedish brand I just started using.
With both I love how they feel on my skin, that my face stays pretty hydrated even with the poisonous addition to my body and the clean, natural scent is for me, a reminder that, at least, I’m not adding more bad stuff than I have to.
Time to let Mr W out of his crate for his breakfast.Let’s see how this goes?
No talk, no touch no eye contact, as Cesar (www.cesarsway.com) says and working on politeness as Gabi von Post (www.gladahunden.se), reminds me of.