Third time from last chemo, yesterday, feeling the impatience increasing. Amazing how clear it is that when you’re longing for the future (or the past, of course) time slows down and the moment becomes insignificant, bothersome or just boring.
The end of this is very clear and the date is set, but how many times do we long for things that we don’t really know when they will arrive (even if we’ve set a date), exactly, creating so much frustration and so much feelings of “failing” when what we wish for doesn’t come fast enough.
With my chemo journey it’s been so clear that a specific goal, a clear time line and specific actions on the way, creates the “right” energy, makes it easier to stay on track and has you live within that goal, in such a vivid way.
And I do know all those “perfect” ways of goal setting already!
For me that means doing those things that support me without loosing my way.
Meditating, eating those things that I think are right for me, writing, checking my energy, making sure that I stay honest towards myself and others, being who I want to be (who I suppose I am but haven’t always shown the world completely) and taking care of me physically, mentally and emotionally, in whatever way I believe helps me stay well.
Even though this is kind of a goal outside of me, a goal that someone else set, me accepting to follow this road has made me more focused than maybe, I’ve ever been.
Maybe the risk of dying will do that for you :)