Another downhearted (Google translate, never heard that word, is it even a word?) day where chemo and side effects are winning.
That tiredness that doesn’t change no matter what I do. Rest, sleep and still there.
Feeling dizzy, tissue full of blood when blowing my nose, kind of headachy, probably from sinuses being all thin and destroyed. Stomach out of sorts.
And on top all because of overwhelm, feeling so sad, all I want to do is cry.
What am i doing to myself? Will my body ever recuperate? Am I destroying things that can’t be repaired? Was this chemo thing the wrong decision and I will regret it forever?