Doctor’s appointment today, supposed to talk about the continuation of my treatment. Well……I have already decided to not do anything else after chemo is finished.
I know some people will be upset and I wish I didn’t have to tell them but of course, it’ll be obvious, not just from me not having a schedule of radiation etc. I write about it….yes all about being honest and transparent :)
Reminding myself that I’m courageous and that I have to follow my inner compass and not other’s fears.
Last time seeing this doctor I didn’t really like her but this time I experienced her as straight forward.
“We offer you a smorgasbord. Most people have the whole thing, some choose some of it and some say no to all of it!.
I like that way of looking at treatment.
Leaving I am reminded of that the Swedish word for health care is “sick care”. Says it all doesn’t it. Western medicine is about treating the sickness, avoiding sickness, not really creating health and wellness.
And yes I know that we all want the same, to survive, to be well and to live a full live.
I’m done with sick care and so ready to expand my health care, my care of me and my health, my wellness, outer as well as inner. And to live a full life again and probably even a little bit fuller, having taking a whiff of dying, once more.
Being close to a possible end can do that for you, wake you up and push you into a more vibrant and, oh so precious, living.