Doubting that this tired, completely exhausted feeling will change. How long will it take until I feel normal again?
Days spent on the couch, no energy whenever I try to do something else.
Yesterday after going to the super market I had to cancel laundry because I felt too tired.
Today I wanted to take Winston for a second walk but again, too tired.
I know it’s only the week after last treatment but I’m so over this. And so over complaining!!!
Will I ever come back completely form this? Does one ever heal completely? How long does it take?
What can I do more than what I’m already doing?
Resting makes no difference and at the same time it seems to be the only thing I can do. Make for a very boring days.
It’s as if part of my brain is al about the future and re-creating a more normal life, a bit more excitement and more fun and then part of it is all fuzzy and only have energy to do what’s absolutely necessary.
It was easier to let go and just be when the project was chemo and getting through it was my main focus. Now when I want to take the next step, I’m lost in waiting and wishing for tomorrow to be better.
Not so much being in the moment, for sure.
Very hard do be in the “now” when the now is so f-ing boring.