That first week was kind of the same as during chemo which, I suppose was to expect. Tired body and an awake mind that wanted to do more. Trying to be patient and trust that “this too will pass”.
When a bit more energy returned I went to the gym for the first time in six months. Interesting to say the least and so much fun.
Could feel my body being surprised and puzzled at the same time as remembering and feeling right at home.
Waking up sleeping muscles reminding my mind that taking it easy is a rule when starting out with weight training although my mind didn’t always want to listen. Heavy and pushing is so much more fun.
Surprisingly enough I didn’t really get that sore and even more surprisingly, my right leg that has been bothering more than usual didn’t hurt for two days.
Hoping that means that working out regularly will take care of the issue I have with my hips and legs.
Got to ride along some friends who where going to visit family, for me to visit a friend in the country which was so much fun.
Winston behaved surprisingly well and I lasted the day even though I was very tired the next day.
I suppose I will have to accept that my energy doesn’t last as long as “normally” and just accept that I just have to rest even though when starting out it feels as if I’m all back.
Went for a healing session with MJ that showed me that I still need to find a way to be more open and more vulnerable in the midst of strength and “handling it all”. Tricky to find that balance.
So day by day experience a mix of freedom, acceptance, listening, frustration, happiness and more on this next phase of my journey. Continuing on focusing on healing, inner and outer, being strong and secure in being me and looking to a future filled with even more learning, new discoveries, going deeper to find new heights and living a life even more authentic and true.