On track of finding my way again after finding myself in this sort of emptiness, this space of nothing.
Afraid to say, to write, that having finished chemo, life didn’t show up all roses and laughter, but instead I felt lost, wondering what to do now.
I wouldn’t want chemo back for anything. Having had that horrendous experience I don’t think I would ever go through that again no matter what life throws me in the future.
Although I am glad to have had the experience both to have the understanding of what chemo is and even more so, the inner changes that I have come away with.
So after a couple of days when my hip/leg pain got unbearably painful, not being able to sleep, I started getting a sore throat and developed a lip sore which I’ve never had :), I worked with my friend and best coach ever, Annika, https://www.humandignity.se, and realised that I have to step in, even if I don’t even know for sure how or where.
Asked my angels (I don’t know who they are but I trust that they are around), listened and opened my eyes for signs or/and messages and this morning I decided to create another event/meet, http://www.mindtolife.com/life-coach, where wellness is the focus, even if it’s in the middle of the summer and most Swedes are vacationing.
Sometimes, most of the time is my experience, the signs or ideas, if you want to call it that, come softly and not at all so clearly that you might see them as signs, but however they show up, I’ve learnt to listen and to follow.
At times the clarity, the proof shows up and sometimes it’s just a small step towards the right mood, the right energy for your next step.
What’s important is to just trust and to step in, full heartedly.