This painful hip thing has really pushed me down and then…..
Thursday going to bed my hip/leg wasn’t hurting. Laying in bed wondering if it’s really true or if it’ll start hurting eventually. Fell asleep and slept all night without being woken up from pain.
I do have a hard time believing that it’s actually changed and keep waiting for the pain to return.
Then when walking W, I can hardly take a step without excruciating pain in my right buttocks and all around the hip. Walking with small steps and feeling hopeless.
Talking to A she reminds me that if it can get better it can get better again. Ok, trying to hold on to that.
I decide to stretch a bit but with a different mind set that don’t even know where it’s coming from. I feel more positive, more decisive, more in charge.
Going to bed it hurts a little but not as much and kind of different. Take a couple of Aspirin to be able to fall a sleep and when I wake up it’s 8 am…..WHAT? I usually wake up at 6. 8 is if I’m sick or something.
Anyway, the even more amazing thing is that there is hardly no pain.
I walk W and no pain, full steps, full walk and I’m ok. What happened? Will it stay?
Get home, vacuum, do a few paint touch ups, bring stuff up to the attic, run a couple of errands and I’m still ok.
A bit of aching in my knees as I’m sitting down to write this but my mind and heart feel optimistic, more energetic and with a different focus.
So what changed?
Did my mood change because I could see some positive changes or did the positive changes come from my mind changing? What created what? What started this change? How do I harness it?
Maybe since there is no time, there is not one starting, but both or even everyone? No one or the other but just change?
How does that really work? How do you discover it? How can I make it mine and use it? how can I live it?